When You're Gone [By Nisar Hussain]

                     When you’re gone

Time never stop running, life never stop moving on. They both never stop, and that’s how the world runs. Don’t be sad while adhering with the truth that you’ll be gone, you’re not alone, and all the billions of people are traveling on same road towards same destination.

Have you ever came across a time when you outset for having thoughts beyond your ken? Of course, everyone have. No one can disregard the truth of reaching that particular spot when, after constant infliction and heart breaking miseries, the person dawn to wonder with awe, the most bitter question of his life: “What will happen when I will be gone”? So much worse for this humanity, no one can exactly crack this question for anyone, but the man himself gets the best answer, too sad he won’t be alive to answer it then.

News of your death came as an utter shock and bump to your every known person. Then some haltingly start to grasp what a great loss has happened. The word “Never” itself is profound and wide, and when people realize, they’ll NEVER see you again, it pushes their heart for an instant. Your mother, who loved you with all her heart and soul, who poured her blood in you, who gave you a piece of her heart before you even stepped onto this world, who cannot see you out of her sight for a single moment, who holds the greatest pain for you, what goes on to that great woman’s heart when she get to know that you gave up and succumbed to despair and left her??? That heart may even stop beating because…hey! Didn’t I just mentioned..”She gave you a piece of her heart <3” and you slew it. Even if she manages out to keep herself alive, her heart would be shattered into million pieces, kaput. Tears running down from cheeks you used to kiss, her heart which used to beat for you, starts slipping down for losing you! No one can have even a single clue of what’s going inside that mother! She sees the empty chair you used to sit and work on, the place you used to sleep! Becomes the place her eyes drain out. How can she sleep at her bed while thinking that her innocent kid is sleeping in his grave wearing a white coffin! She used to hold you in her arms when you used to get scared. Now when you are sleeping down in darkness, she can’t even slide her soft hand on your forehead, passing her soft fingers though your hairs, whispering in your ears that everything will be alright! Every night, her pillow drenches in tears.

What about that great man who brought you up, who raised you, supported you, loved you, drained sweat and blood to make your life! Protected you from this cruel harsh world, made you strong and tough to be able to live! Taught you the lessons of life! How much disappointing, discouraging, depressing, and disheartening for that great man who’s son failed despite his neck breaking hard work. Yes! That’s your father! And this is the little of what he may feel when you’ll be gone! You never had known before, but that man used to come by your bed just to satisfy his heart that you’re fine and then slide a loving hand on your forehead, prays for your safety and success! Begs to God for your life every night! You might cannot realize but that man used to drain drops of drenching emotions even when you were alive! Can you imagine the height of his grieving emotions when you will be gone? He is ready to fight with the whole world for you! Stop any coming bullet with his own body to protect you! For him, you come before his own self! Trust me! No one does that for anyone. It’s the hardest and when found, the luckiest thing anyone can get in this life! And you get this as a gift in the face of your loving Father <3 the person who is ready to cede his own life for you!

For a moment, try imagining a scene, you’ll realize how much your father loves you. This is based on a true story, not a fantasy.

Put yourself in this story like this:

You and your father are walking down a street. All of a sudden and out of nowhere, a car stops by, a man smashes out of it and fasten a gun at you, about to press the trigger and robs your life away. While your father is watching this entire scene. What do you expect him to do here? Disregarding and ignoring the danger of losing his own life, he brings his own body in front of you, faces towards you, turns his back over the gun man, holds you tightly behind, bring your head close to his chest, cover your ears so you don’t hear when he gets shot from the back! And within a second, the bullet that was suppose to take your life way, pierce into his body from the back, then another! And another! His grip on you is still the same tight besides getting his own body cleaved by bullets from back! You never knew, neither did he, but he promised himself to not let you go! As it has always been his desire to keep you with him! A normal man would soon fall after getting shot, but that person there is not a man! That’s a Father! Who’s fighting till his last breath for his son! Despite his old age, he still proves to be strong enough to bear the pain of bullets to protect you and become the hero of your life! What else is there left to prove? What other love is there than this? What other great sacrifice is there than sacrificing your own life!? But this is not it here! He is still fighting with his own life for you! Until the gun runs out of magazine, he runs back to attack the gun man for even daring to hurt you! While his own body is dousing blood and bore with bullets. He gives his last breath and last stroke to protect you, so that YOU CAN LIVE!!! What will go on inside that father if he didn’t even get a chance to sacrifice himself to save you? Your death! Is not only your death! It’s the death of that great man who couldn’t save you! He ultimately gives up on life for not being able to save you.

When it comes to your siblings, how will they feel when you’ll be gone? You used to laugh together, play together, fight together, study together, eat together, have fun together, joke together, spend whole day together, share mom and dad’s love together! When you’ll be gone, all this “together” scenario will go missing of the word “TOGETHER”. They’ll look at your empty bed and pillow, drop tear beads of sorrow and grief for you not being there anymore. They’ll look into each other’s eyes, knowing that the one among them, the part of their family, is no longer there and will never come back. Suddenly the sight goes fade with tears. Everything you used to do together become the things to remind them of your absence then. Nothing remains fun for them anymore. They wished you could still be there with them or the time could reverse, again the tears drop when they realize that it’s too late now and it’ll stay like this forever and you will never return to them.

Your best friend, your friends, people that liked your existence, your class fellows! Everyone that has ever got to know you will bring their eyes down in sorrow. In fact, grieving for your death is what left for them to do for you now. You didn’t left any other choice for them to do for you! They will see your empty chair in class, no one will sit there but everyone will have their eyes stick to it with emotions leading down their eyes. Everyone there will witness a sorrowful silence, like no one wants to talk to anyone, even those who weren’t even close to you but just have seen you.

Teachers! That kept good expectation of your bright future once, how disappointing for them when they will not see you on your chair anymore. This wasn’t what they ever expected from you! You failed in the test of your life!

Wasn’t it so sad when I was telling all this? It seems like you have a great influence on everyone around. But this isn’t the end of sorrow! There’s a fact left behind to be revealed. Isn’t it so heart breaking that your death doesn’t matter more to this world than grieving for the very first moment and then …near to completely forgetting that you even ever existed! </3 that is the truth! We call it “LIFE”.

The Answer to “What will happen when I’ll be gone” is…

“People will move on”.

Initially the emotions will be at height of their peak, but just with the passing time, they will move on and the height of emotions will no longer remain there. You’ll become nothing but a memory of a ‘great friend’, ‘great student’, ‘great brother’, and ’great son’.

Many road accidents take place every day. For a moment, everyone stops, feel bad, and pray for those who died and got injured and then…Move on! You never saw a terrific stopped for long just for an accident right? This is exactly how life also goes.

Your close ones, even they won’t drain tears for you for their whole life. That sorrow fades away and everyone starts accepting the truth that you are not in this world anymore so let’s move on! Time isn’t stopping, why shall the life stop moving on then? Makes Sense there right?! I pass a graveyard at a side of a road everyday while going and coming back from my college. It takes less than 30 seconds and I pass hundreds of graves. This doesn’t even give me enough time to notice more than a few graves clearly. That’s your worth after death.

I am definitely not saying that the love your father, mother, siblings, and friends owed you is fake! That is totally not fake but 100% pure! I tried to portray the near to exact feeling of them. But among that sad truth, we cannot deny the fact of life! It will “never” stop moving on.

The time you’re gone, everyone moves on. People you held, people you loved, become the people you left. No one stays, no one cares for long. Time never cease, Life always decease. Don’t be sad for leaving this world, never could anyone stood here for long. The One, who came, later becomes the one to leave one day.